剩三天，就回了。。

可以不要回KL吗。。>_< 我会舍不得。。

happy new year

happy new year~ 2 more days!

happy mood come come come~~~

let's party and forget everything!! LoLx.

Heart

my heart is heavy..

Burdens~

Im weak..

I am so blessed!

Thank God!
I am so happy..I am so blessed.
I have God in my life. I have a warm and loving family.
I have leaders to accountable to.
I have friends to sampat together.
Praise God for everything!

This evening,Mummy bought me a new spectacle and contact lenses~
Altogether cost almost RM400. That's alot!
Yesterday bought me new shoes some more.
hmmm..I am really blessed!

I went station1 dinner with ah hang.
He told me the things my mum told him when they had a meal together.
it's about me.
Hang: Auntie.做么有时你不理雪雯或者常常骂她咧？
Mum: 我也不知道，有时看到她的脸就是很想骂她。。
Hang: 【forgot dy..】
Mum: 但是她真的很乖。。我很喜欢她～

well..that's enough.I am really satisfy already.
She always always judge me,scold me..But!
Praise me every where anytime to everyone (except me).
I know and I know..''Don't know how to express'' is my family culture..
They just don't know how to express,scold me seems become the easiest way.
But I understand! and I appreciate..I am thankful,I have them!
Daddy also..Keep adjusting the temperature of the air cond for me.
Scared I feel hot or can't sleep well.

Went out with sister~
Sing K with her and her friends..
My jiejie always proud to introduce me to her friends 1..
''This is my sister, xue wen!''
''She sings very nice 1''
''My sister very pretty 1~''(she says so when I am not there)

As for my brother, very cute 1..
sometimes give me a call, asking ''你在哪里？'',''几时回来？''
hehe..My family..Always Warm my heart.

Today is a meaningful day.
I manage to spend time with zhabo~
chat awhile with her when her lunch time..hehe..(happy to see you)

tomorrow continue clean my house,learn new things..And spend time with them^^
and also,you~
I am supporting you!
few more days..Tahan few more days!!
''Miracle that rewards is come on its way~''
Aza Aza fighting!

开心我拥有的一切！
Lord,with You I can do anything.
Everything I have come from You.
thank You~^^
[with Love,with Joy~]

BP~

在bp了咯！thank God I have a safe journey^^
从今天算起呢，我会有20天在bp..
这是我好好跟家人相处的时间！
当然，我不要让我这宝贵的假期被facebook和msn填满~
我要开始减肥！ehmm..是keep fit!
那样新年我就不会被讲圆。。
而且，也有空间吃。。[我减肥是为了吃更多。。XD]

明天开始，要打扫除了~
也要早睡早起~
对了！准时！不管去哪里，驾车出去都好，都要准时~让时间追我。。^_^
我觉得很开心，因为我今天做了很多事。。
5pm开始买东西，煮东西，洗东西，吃homemade食物，买鞋子，又吃东西！！

今天早上还跟Shir一起吃东西。。
她请我去secret recipe吃~
爱死她了！她真的很疼我。。^^
当然，也跟她谈了重要的事情。。
[不急，不能急]是所有的答案~

嗯嗯~要睡了咯！明天要去找女人,带她出去喝茶~再回去做工。。呵呵。。期待看到你！
还有，等着你，一起go makan Non stop~hehe!
眼镜。。断了。我需要眼镜。。>_<(ask mama sponsor..hehe)
Auntie淑芬，我也超想你的！（我们的老地方-McD)
.........
This will be my fruitful holiday!
I m looking forward! Utilize my 20days~
Happy holiday everyone!^^

When you believe..

think of this song suddenly..

Nice one!

There can be miracles, when you believe..

Though hope is frail, it's hard to kill

Who knows what miracles you can achieve

When you believe, somehow you will

You will.. when you believe~

Just believe..In your heart..

you will when you believe~ #

I care so much of people's opinion.>_<

Here I am, shifting my focus on God again..

Well.. people are subjective.. They say different things to you.

Since there is answer in you, go asking around for what? just want to prove yourself is right?

Silly me.. Very tired lo.

I want focus on how He looks me. Yeah.. That's enough~

* What you focus will grow! *

what am I focusing today?my problem? my assignment? my family..?

hmm, of cause-Problems all go away..

I am focus on my God. my family. and ...

I pray and I ask and I BELIEVE~

miracles are coming to town..haha!

Oh ya! Finish exam already lo!^^

Had an outing with classmates after the last paper..

''WooHoo'', the story is nice!

Meaningful..

Bp..wait me..few more days~hehe..

2 more..2 more 2 go..

I am super tired~

physically..mentally..

how long I didn't sleep at night already?

>_<''

the moment I would like to give up..

There is always someone there for me..

Maybe not one, but many..

For me, I know they are the angels who guide me~^^

Lee Choo sent me message..

" Hey, just said a prayer for you...Keep up the spirit to give your very best. Those who endure till the end shall be saved. I know you can do it..''

and after I replied, she sent me another one,

''I know it's not easy.. But pray and depend on the strength of God.. As long as you don't give up but believe, miracle will come on its way...''

and also what you told me,

‘‘说好一起加油的！不要放弃！！！’’

Japanese Language! and Principle of Int. Finance!

today and tomorrow!

I will keep going on~

I don't care how serious is my Obakak, my pimple..[ I will care after exam,haha! ]

but, I want to KEEP MY SPIRIT to give my very Best! I won't give up but I believe..^__^

Good morning!!~

I gonna miss these days after my exam..^^

exam exam exam~

haha..I always update my blog 1 day before my exam..XD

speechless la.. This is so called, Procrastination.

Anyway, suddenly I feel like want to gym, want to learn english, want to study others' subject. Gain knowledge ma..I told myself.

HOR SHIR WEN!!

WAKE UP!!

hmm..I am going to KFC. continue my 10 chapters la.[OMG]

Good luck to Me..and my Bb, and all my course-mates.^^

Also, Jiayou my dear~

Happy~

I am Happy! Hahaha..=P

I will have 1 more paper tomorrow morning. Cross Cultural Studies..

I am going to church at 6.30pm.

It's the first CWPM-church wide prayer meeting in 2010..Will be great.^^

after that,i will join the leaders' meeting. hehe. Nice!

Oh ya. Today is our brother, Jason tham's birthday!

Hehe..Happy birthday to you~^^

Tonight! Fight for tomorrow's paper!! Aza Aza all my friends!

hmmm.. Let me conclude this post.

-I am Happy!- xD

New Year Resolutions! =P

hahaha! it's 18th January !

hmmm.. I am going to write out my New Year Resolutions..

still January, so I think still logic to write this~ haha, it's never too late~

My Goals for 2010 (8 areas)

Spiritual Life

1. Finish reading bible by following the guideline written in the NKJV.

2. Pray Everyday.

3. Lead praise&worship and guitarist in cg.

4. Continue serve and more on fire in choir ministry.

5. Join community care.

Family&Friends

1. Spend more time at home when at bp.

2. Call mummy.

3. Update friends.

Health

1. Lose weight and then maintain at xxkg!

2. Go to gym at least once a week.

3. Sleep at 1am. [ Jiayou!!!!!! ]

Emotional,Psychological Growth

1. Be happy and Smile~ haha..

2. Control my anger,calm down and not to affect others as well.[When I am impatient]

Education, Intellectual, Professional

1. Get CGPA 3.4 and above for my diploma.

2. Read Booksss.

3. Improve my english!

Material

1. Debts-free..( sounds like duty-free..)

2. Fulfill my building funds, faithful in tithe and offering.

3. Camera~

Leisure

1. Outing to Broga Hill also jungle trekking with cg members. [ at least 2 big outing! ]

2. 1 trip with friends.

3. Must sleep everyday. [ no more sleepless night ]

Creativity

1. Learn more about desserts, coffee. [ how to do desserts..]

2. More guitar skills and chords.

Yea yea yeah!! Done 7788 already!

I am so happy~ [hahaha!]

-->I just went gym yesterday. Really great la~

Other than that,

-->I had a 1 hour+ chit-chat time with mummy~ [^^]

And also,

-->I made the first call (since i came KL) to Daddy..

I am so paisey~ But I finally make it!

Although didn't talk much with daddy as he was playing chess with his friends,

but I know I had delivered my msg to him..that is: I miss him.

He is so sweet, still forward a message to tell me he is so sorry that cannot chat with me at that time.

Seriously, when i reply his message, I am really touch and bu she de..(want cry dy..T.T)

Why say sorry..

I suppose to call back, but this call seems so precious to him. that he says sorry because he missed it.

*Family is always my priority..I love them so much!

Love them^^

Happy birthday to you~

Happy birthday To: Lau Ee Hang

2010 dy..20 already..

Things are so different now. Changed..and still changing..

I think it's time to have a new way to deal with new year and new life ya?

Jiayou always. You can Do it!

Don't be afraid. If you fall down, He is always there, back up,support you and help you~

Of course I am here as well..if you need my help..

I am sorry about my late wishes.. Just thinking about what to tell you and send to you.

Hope you understand and don't get upset..

I will still keep walking..you take time and rest a while..

after that, remember to RUN and catch up the distance..

Everyone is still moving on..you can't find anyone if you stop too long and look back..because they are in front you too..

I want you to be happy too..

you deserved to have a happy life and enjoy it..

Have a great 2010! Jiayou Hang!

[ for 17th January 2010 ]

Procrastinating...

..............................................................................................
Exam Soon~ 5more hours. Business Communication!

I love you.you are interesting..but! why we need to have a paper like you?

You are all about Common sense..

i don't like memorize things.. and Now~

I am procrastinating..lolx..

Stressed man..So many chapters to go, Formats to memorize..

Zzz..??

Shirley gave me this..she is ''Stress Ball''.

know why? haha..just pinch her..to release stress! xD

Noh..become like this..ahahahahaha!!!

hehe..Back to my revision..

Hor Shir Wen! Aza Aza Fighting!!!!!!

I am NOT going to give up! =)

说好一起加油的！不要放弃！！！

wondering..

哈哈。。今天的我可以心情不好一下吗？。。。

[海边~沙滩~现在想去耶。。=P]

刚才看到照片，真的觉得我很像笨蛋..

我的出现对你们来说是什么呢？我被利用了吧？

如果说我们是朋友，那为什么做那么多让人误会的事？

嗯。。本来就希望你们和好，

但是我不开心的是，你就只有在需要我的时候这么积极的找我。。

这个真的让我很失望。。

Pastor Derek上个星期还教了我们要谅解人的mistakes,

That is really right! No one is perfect..I can't expect them act in the way that I wish,right?

Only God is perfect. Only trusting in Him will not get hurt, will not disappointed.

我希望你们可以坦白的面对彼此之间的感情。

知道你们是合适的。。加油吧！[记得：坦白+沟通]

I know, everything happens,there is a purpose for it.

God is a purposeful God. I am here, not by chance.

我出现在你们的生命里也绝对不是偶然。。

希望我的出现，让你们更珍惜对方，看清楚你们要的是什么。。

要不然，我真的觉得我的出现很多余。。=.=

今天的我，很想念很想念陪我一起很久了的姐妹。。朋友。。My dears..还有姐姐。。

你们的真，我真的很珍惜。。

哈哈。。考试加油！倒数三天！

Aza Aza Fighting!!

Leaders' Meeting!

tonight I am going to join the leaders' meeting at church! Officially!

So happy. Just like xx(forgot who already..) said : 即期待又还怕受伤害的心情。。haha!

I am very excited. More things to do and learn.

I am quite scared because there are things I can't do it well and bring trouble to subzone.

Well..I am gonna work on my brain. I have to train my brain to remember things well!

Can't forget. Can't find excuse!

Yesterday I watched Avatar 3D at pavilion!

Nice! I will love the movie even more if the subtitle is shown.

Lol.. Is it because that is 3D, so people no need subtitle and just enjoy the effect?

haha.. I cant really understand. Too bad..

Have to thank sampat Na for his time- travel (it's a long long journey) from nilai to pavilion and watch with me.

Thanks for this expensive movie and Starbucks. So nice! the Mocha. ^^ your Latte really taste...errrr...==''

Decided to exercise once a week for 2010! haha..Not enough? Well..better than once a semester..=P

Going to have lecture already..[ business communication ]

Ganbate for today!

happy! because i have set my vision.

Yeah..The best is yet to come! Believing there are so much more..Love YOU.^^

[ miss mummy..]

All things New! Hope^^

reading Pastor Kong's Blog..

learnt this..

''we must engage the marketplace of business, education, government, arts and entertainment, and the mass media. And this is our destiny, not just to preach the message but to be that message''

Not to preach the message, but to be that message!!

yeah..i got it!

Just do it..^^

happy new year Everyone!!

Goodbye 2009..Hello 2010!

Pastor Kevin preached about 'Confidence' in the service just now.^^

everything is new every year..I m new everyday in God.^^

when we feel new, there is a sense of hope..

Eg: new year,new start, I got to do well in my new semester. Leaving my failure behind. Move on! I will make it this year!

This is the power of the new beginning.^^

with hope works with confidence=Success!

*without Hope,we died in inside,Because we don't have anything to look forward to.

Hope is So Important!

*But if hope without Confidence, We can't do it. [We ONLY THINK it.]

hope, can also say as confidence!

It gives us strength..it pleases our heart..It's a good and positive thing,it's something for FUTURE!

[ confidence to carry out the task , to finish what we planned to accomplish! ]

-> have confidence(strategy) to speak what we believe in, and what I want to achieve.

What is your dream for 2010??

For me, i would want to have a breakthrough in my time and financial management!

better relationship with my family! Friends..

Have a larger capacity to do more things..Greater things..

[When I know who I am,then I will know what I have!]

I have been renewed. Recharged. With strength..with hope..with Confident(strategy)!

** God won't move, Unless you move.

[ don't ever expect God will bless you a good result, unless you really put in effort to study for the exam. ]

[ don't ever expect God will restore the relationship between my family and I, unless i Do something for them and show how I love them in actions. ]

Do more and more..keep growing..^^

X'mas Drama Production! Zhabo forever~

I am going to Church christmas drama production later!

the title for this year x'mas drama is : Operation: Save The World.

cool~ I can't wait for it ady..[ must be very cool, touching and funny 1.^^]

more detail for this event>>[ http://www.facebook.com/event.php?eid=213336469269&ref=ts ]

I am happy because Latte Bb always keep her promise..

she promised me, and feel excited to go for production also, thxx Bb!

Penny is going also, wow! Praise God.

I hope both of you can really enjoy tonight and have a lot of Fun!

I bought bus ticket already. Evan acc me went pudu yesterday.[So nice..He worried that i go Pudu alone at 9pm+ also la. Thx Sampat. ]

24th back bp. not much feeling also.Well, my mum really so angry at me.

So stress to think about going back home.

[ jiayou jiayou! HSW!]

Joz and I made tang yuan yesterday..haha! Alot of gingers inside, end up we all crying.

but still comfort ourselves: good ma, ginger,去风。

hehe..anyway, feel good la. still can eat it at KL..[miss my mum cook de~]

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* Zhabo, miss you so much.

the time we can spend together getting lesser. Sometimes I am busy, sometimes you busy.

Recently can't meet up you too, coz i am still here.

I agreed with you that, too many things happened already, it's so hard to talk about it.

Don't know where to start also. But, I know our friendship is not built in 2 weeks time, but at least 2 years.

we are adult now. Friendship remains the same? it's not that possible.

But why not we have a new way for our friendship?

no longer the same like we still studying in smka..

all things new. I believe, when there is a will, there is a way.

Since both of us, are still love each other so much, and reserved a place in heart that is belong to each other.

Then there is no way that our friendship will just end like that.

We are still the same. I m still Hor Shir Wen. Tan Pei San's zhabo.

never never change. i never never forget! ^^

Miss you..and will see you soon okay!

My life is wonderful. Many things happened. Just like a drama.

although have to face all things, and solve the problems, but..I Love It.

better than i can't find meaning,purpose in life. Better than i got nothing to do.

I like a guy. Admire him. But, still.. I will listen to what Father tells me.

Always remember the Digi's slogan : I will follow You~ ^^

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Going to prepare myself already!

Pump gas with Latte Bb, then fetch Penny, and go to church!

Still a happy day.

EvErything I have, I know, from You~ thank You..

照顾好自己。。

faster recover!!! I prayed for the Healing power..

and I know that God is working..

Jiayou ok? Be strong..Tahan a little bit more..

[ I am so worry~ i walked so much just now~ ]

Why Bad Things Happen to Good People?

I just read an article from Ps.Kong Hee's blog.
It's really great article!
Pastor talked about how bad things happen to Job. Within 24 hours, Job lost his entire business and family.But Job still trust in God.
It's never easy for anyone to go through the difficult times and tough situations. However when terrible things happen to us, Pastor Kong mentioned few things that we need bear in mind.

1.Know that God is not angry with you.
2.Realize that you are in a spiritual warfare.
3.Believe that God is ultimately in control.
4.Offer up the sacrifice of praise.
5.Understand that God is seeking to make you better.
6.Develop the capacity to obediently endure
7.Get ready for the double portion.

I like this: [God is more interested in our character than our comfort. He is a very purposeful God and never arbitrary in His treatment concerning us. That is why when we do not see His hand, we must learn to trust His heart. If not, we will become confused, resentful and bitter. That is precisely why we need faith in our walk with Him. The silence of God will make you wonder if He even cares, but He does. The silence of God will make you wonder if He is even there, but He is. Faith is never for the good times, it is always for the difficult times.]
-So, when the time i start wondering, this is definitely recharge me!

and also i love this..: [Trusting God is when you do not need an explanation from Him for whatever is happening in your life.]
-Haha! well..learn to trust God from now~

Here is the web site:

[ http://www.konghee.com/www/2009/11/when-bad-things-happen-to-good-people/#more-4363 ]

Finally done my sermon. sent it to waikok ady. Hopefully my sermon can pass..

be Happy~^^

*To be happy is a choice, is a decision.*

sorry..but appreciate~

To Mummy: sorry because cant even go to meet you..
was having clt test..hmmm..recently i am so so so busy~
u came yesterday to attend dinner.. brought my things to me too..but i just no time to find you 2day!
felt bad..and cried..not because u ignore me, not because you hang up the phones, but because i upset you..i know you are angry..and maybe disappointed?because you packed all my things at home,purposely go and buy the shampoo,coffee..etc i want before the day u come, but in the end, u bring back all the things. [hmm..i feel bad..]
I talked to Shirley..cant really talk properly just now. She thought the test is too tough ady,tats y i feel sad..haha. [ thanks Shirley..u hug me make me cry non-stop. Although just few minutes, but u really 100% concentrate and listen to me..-always^^]
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I m fine now..will send a msg and say sorry to mummy..No matter what happened, i know that it is all because you love me so much..! thank you, mummy..and sorry..
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CLT paper test is finally over! wow..12 lessons altogether 480 marks..each paper 40 marks and passing mark is 20m..I want to pass all the 12 papers~~~~ [ when the result will be release?? ]
next week.. PREACHING Test! well..my sermon still on the way..i am super ganjeong~
I really have to do my best! i don't want to disappoint myself,leaders,and also God la..Jiayou Jiayou~ [ i know i can do all things through Christ who strengthens me! ]
2 more assignments,2 more presentation+hard copy to go this week..I want to push my ceilings, strecthed my capacity, stop procrastinating......[ i will never be the same again,it's time to make a decision and move on. ]
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I have a wish...
i wish to join my CLT graduation.[on 26th Dec] really really really..wish to graduate!
work hard for it, i don't wish to find bro,sis to help me get my certificate..i wish i will be there! i wish my mum..my dad..my family will be there too!
but,family trip to Desaru on 25-27th Dec..
[ God, i believe the best is yet to come..u know what is the best for me, and although the thing seems not nice,and i don't like too, but still, i will do it,i will follow you..]
''Aza aza fighting''..You are there,Hope is always there..

recently....

ha! i am back..so busy~

i joined Parade Of School (P.O.S) and also drill for this year emerge..
POS aka cheer leading..it needs alot of practises,time and energy!
all the pos members just so amazing..all of them just commit in it and seems i m the only one feel so lazy to go sometimes..haha!=P

hmm..we have to travel to church from setapak..and we normally back at home at 2am+..
this is so cool~ i can't imagine that i joined Drill (kawad kaki) too,which also requires alot of time to practise..
i m very happy that i have the chance go to CLT-cell leader training! Praise God!

without God, i m really nothing..
Because of Him, i know what is the purpose of my life..I know what i m living for..I know who I am..I know be a righteous person is always right and I m not worry about people will get benefit from me. I know He controls everything, I know n I know, He will protect me, hold my hand and walk with me when I am down/lost my direction and way in life,studies...etc..

'' I am saved by GRACE through FAITH to do GOOD WORK!'' Keith keep repeating this in clt class..haha!

I m learning to deal with my problem-procrastination!
it really really stop me proceed to the next level and have a breakthrough..!
and next Tuesday, i m going to present this topic in my class..it's a 10min presentation..cool! my first time..haha!
i m really hope that, my friends will blessed by this!

I m going to church later, Rev.Dr. Robb Thompson is in the house! woohoo!
this special weekend services on Thursday(2day) n Friday(2mr)..

and also, i will stay at Shirley's house 2nite,2mr night and also saturday night!
haha..i really excited..! She is just so friendly, so nice, so talented, so pretty..etc! i m so blessed that i know her!

Change starts with a decision! and i made a decision that, i want to improve myself, i wan become more and more like Him, i wish to become the blessing for others..
i wonder, how ppl feel about me from past until now? i m still the same?
anywhere, the Best is yet to come! ^_^

[*lol..so tired~ i m going to sleep! had a sleepless night yesterday..
will update soon la..( zhabo..i ll come bk 1..haha..)]